Well, as a dr. sc. and at the position of a "senior research associate" at a "public institute" (whatever that means,
either in Croatia or in the EU...), i just CAN AFFORD to be somewhat crazy - for how long, I honestly don't now...
But they'll find me out, sooner or later... and then what...? Join you in the US, or what? My friend, believe me,
you're not the only one being in trouble...